My Path to Islam
Let me give you the general picture: I am white, 'middle class', and
rapidly passing a half-century in age.
I went through all the typical white-middle-class nonsense. I worked
for the big corporation. I climbed up the ranks. I started as a
computer operator, went through the promotions. Systems tech.
Programmer. Systems programmer. Manager over a tech support
department. And so on.
House in the fancy suburb, bought my wife a Volvo, all that kind of thing.
Eventually I went out freelance, independent computer work. Owned my
own company.
Hit my 40's, got divorced, chased women, drank a lot, chased more
women, did drugs, did more drugs.
Did the wrong drug. Found myself spending much more effort trying to
do cocaine than trying to do the work Allah gave me the talent for.
Found myself eventually in jail, of course.
But Allah is merciful. He had His plan.
That jail, a state jail, was more than a county lock-up, but less than
the stereotypical "Hollywood " prison. No riots, no tear gas, no
beatings
(well... I did see two incidents, but let's not digress).
But the company in jail is not the most righteous, even for a junior
criminal like me. I certainly don't recommend it as a vacation spot
for anyone... for one thing the help is really rude. ;-)
Anyway, I had noticed that there was one group in there that DIDN'T
seem to be out to prove themselves tougher, who weren't busy trying to
run one scheme or another, who seemed to be *unshackled* by the dark
environment we were in.
That group, you might guess, was the black Muslims. And even that, I
later learned, was an assumption on my part. Some of the brothers were
Black Muslims (Nation of Islam) I would later learn, but most were
Muslims associated with Mosques that (generally) joined W. Dean
Mohammad when he led the bulk of the old N.O.I. away from Louis
Farrakhan and his bunch and back to orthodox Islam.
This was good, and one of the signs of Allah's planning. Because one
day one of my black cellmates was in the same visiting area with his
family when I was visited by my wife.
My wife is black. And word of this got back to the rest of the
inmates in my area. Naturally some of the bigoted whites thereafter
treated me with disdain; no loss as they were not the sort I
associated with. But on the other side of the race line my own aloof
attitude had (unknown to me) been interpreted as prejudice by some of
my non-white cellmates.
Suddenly it was seen that that wasn't my stance.
Getting to the point, this all led to my being invited to an Islamic
learning session. (Here in the U.S. prisons have to accommodate the
faiths of the inmates, within limits)
A chance to get out of the block for a couple of hours? (And some
curiousity.)
I went. They called adzan and then one of the brothers with a good
voice recited al-Fatiha.
It was like nothing I can explain. The Southern Baptists talk about
being 'born again'… Brothers, sisters: is that the right word!
I cried like a baby. There in the middle of a room full of felons.
Tears streaming down my face.
Not one of them ever mentioned that to me. To the best of my knowledge
it was never mentioned outside of that room (and stories like that
spread faster than fire in there).
I had $110,000 in a retirement account when all of this started.
When I got out of jail I had $4,000 left in the bank, and a felony conviction.
I had lost $106,000 but I had gained Islam. I would pay twice that
without blinking.
I do not need anyone else's affirmation of my Islam, I have received
that from the ONE who matters!
(By the way, for anyone who wants to verify, the legal facts I related
above are a matter of public record in the State of Texas.)
Oh, that $4,000? Just as it was running out, I ran into an old boss
(who knew my troubles) in Wal-mart. He hired me two days later.
Alhamdulallah once again!
This account is not for my own fame or agrandizement but for the sake
of Allah. If any good comes out of this story all the credit is due
Him; only the mistakes are my own.
G. Waleed Kavalec
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"O my Lord! bestow wisdom on me,
and join me with the righteous;" ÙŽ
- - Quran, al-Shuara 26:83
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